From Luke's gospel (chapter 10):
As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!" "Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her."
This story is troubling to me.
My "C" personality means that I am a detail-oriented, task-driven type of person. I don't have a high need for being social...in fact, I'm perfectly content to have days where I talk to very few people at all. I value hard work and high quality in myself and others. I want things to be "just right". I don't like being embarrassed by being unprepared, incorrect, incomplete, or late.
I identify much more with Martha in this story than Mary. The meal needed to be prepared...the table needed to be set. Company was there, and a good host would take care of such things. I feel Martha's pain. I can relate.
That's why Jesus' response troubles me.
In my worst moments, I am left feeling as if there is no place in the kingdom for my "C" personality. If I want to be a better disciple, I have to leave behind all of those parts of my personality that I value and find comfort in. I must learn to be less structured, less concerned about punctuality, more care-free and impulsive. I'm told (or at least it's implied) that my desire to keep to a schedule makes me a "bad person".
Of course, then my "C" mind kicks it up a gear and reminds me that I have over-reacted and over-analyzed the whole thing. There is a need for balance, and a right time for both organization and punctuality as well as a right time for flexibility and spontaneity.
Do any of my fellow "C's" share in this wrestling of the mind?